*

“Master Riel.” Art found him sitting on the long chair inside the locker room.


“A – art, how do you know where I am?”


“I can always smell my Master’s scent to you.”


“I, I wanted to get rid of it. Don’t worry I will never come near him again…”


“Master Riel, your left eye, is turning…”


“It is because he didn’t acknowledge me as his mate and has no recollection of everything we have done. It’s slowly fading and at least it’s not painful to be blind and lose every sense. ”

“Why don’t you just confront him?”

“He will never accept it.”


“So you want to stay like this forever until you can barely breathe while Master Yuan is having his life hanging out with those low spirits?”

“Hm, I can do that for him. I will leave him after this.”

“But that’s just insane!”

“I have been insane since birth.” And in just a blink of an eye, Riel’s disappeared like a thin air.

The cold wind touches Art's face and he can’t see any trace of Riel.



*

3:00 am. That was written on his phone, he then looked around and heard a knocking sound downstairs. He got up and hurriedly went down to see who it was.

“You’re here… again. I thought you’d spend your – “


Not able to finish what I said he grabbed my nape and breathily attacked my open lips. Shocked all over my being that I didn’t respond quickly until he bit harder on my lower lip which made me moan and push him. I looked into his eyes and I regret it again as there is no recognition of it.


He held onto my waist again, smelled, and started to lick my neck and bit my shoulder. As I didn’t want this to happen, I avoided and pushed him again. When I was about to step away he grabbed my left arm and dragged me to my sofa in the living room.


I fought hard but he made his way through me that is why I am gritting and moaning on the carpet on all fours. I was in pain as he took hard thrusts and held my hair to make him have a way to kiss my neck to my face and muffle my moan inside his lips. He is making it more like punishing me for avoiding him and I just let him have his way on me. Because I made my decision and that is final. Just one condition, if he remembers me and marks me again, will never leave him but if not…


“Ugh!” I grunted as he spanked me. “Stop…” I whisper and thank goodness he listens but he just continues to drive me on all four and not in some passionate ways. This is how he has treated me for over the four years we’ve shared and I thought I could endure this as long as I had his mark he had mine a long time ago but it disappeared because he doesn’t remember my spirit and accept me whole.


As the dawn passes by the whole living room is starting to lighten up by the sun rays through the thin window curtains. As always he passed out on top of me, while here I am like a lifeless pillow for him. I need to clean him up so that he can go when he wakes up. That’s a routine, but not until now. He is looking at me straightly without anything but I am sure, he remembers it now.



“Riel…” he breathed my name. I gulped and closed my eyes.

“Master Yuan.” That’s all I can say.


“So all along you are the one taking care of my body?” No!

“Yes, master as this is my life mission.”


“But you’re not my mate, are you?” He got up and got his scattered clothes and wore them. I got up too and held the thin towel to hide my nakedness. I feel embarrassed and insulted by what he said.


“What if I am?” I hold the urge to cry because of the pain in my heart. I saw his dark eyes shut and when he opened it, I was afraid that he would get mad again. He strangled me, I tried to hold him but he shoved my hands hard.


“You. Are. Not. My. Mate.” In gritted teeth, he said those words that show no mercy to me at all. 




*

I am hearing and feeling a searing pain in my whole body and spirit. I clutched my chest tightly. I cannot hold it until I cough all the blood that wants to get out. That ring on my left index finger is burning and squeezing the skin.


He suddenly let go of me.

“What is happening to you?” He stepped back.


“Stop.” I wished he did that. My vision started to get blurry and I can’t even smell him now.

“Your spirit is …vanishing?”


“Master Riel!”

“Art?” Yuan said.


“What did you do to him, Master Yuan?!” Yuan was shocked when he saw Riel’s tail. What… a fox?

“Argh! ShLt! No!” he heard Riels cry in pain. Riel punched the floor, he wanted to stop this searing pain so much that he punched and punched the floor and his knuckles got scratched and blood all over it. 



“Nothing… I just said that he is not my – “

“Stop! You just rejected him as your mate, you’re hurting him!” 

“What do you mean you knew this all along?”

“Yes!”

“Why did you keep it from me?”

“B – Because I wanted to have you live your life normally…”


Out of breath Riels crawled and felt the vanishing pain of his tail.


“You just took his life, Yuan.” Art said and hurriedly came to Riel who looked pale and a mess with its blood.


He can’t move. Yuan just felt hot liquid gushing down his face. A fox who is my mate, why I can’t remember anything?

 

Everything now happened too fast. I am too late to realize it.


I feel I want to go back where it started, but how?