Half-hearted


I do everything half-hearted;

Never giving it my all. 

Always spreading out

 my contents,

Across the galaxies, 

in awe…

Of the war inside my head -

Never trusting

anyone.

Breaking;

in the silence 

Of the damage 

that’s been done. 


I do everything; half-hearted

Mechanism of defense - 

if I spilled myself 

for everyone;

All I'd have 

-would be a mess. 


I did everything half-hearted,

til the day 

I learned your heart. 

When it all fell into place

 I knew; 

there were no missing parts. 


I did everything half-hearted

 til the day I fell for you 

Then, put my faith into forever 

And started every day

anew. 


I do everything 

half-hearted

Since; nothing - 

Now, the same. 

Lock this cold

black heart 

back in its box 

and toss it to the flames. 


I do everything half-hearted though;

 my heart

 still speaks your name.

…Believing yours

 would speak mine, too

- I've just myself to blame…


-Marion A. Yost-