She couldn’t remember how she got here. 

She just stood there staring with a blank expression as though she was in a trance. Feeling confused and disoriented as to how she ended up in this strange, unfamiliar place. But, she was alone again when she was on her bed. She knew something was missing and didn’t know what to do. And how it came to all this as she had no recollection or memory as though it was wiped from her. Not quite right in the mind having visions that were mysterious and unexplained yet so vivid distorting her perception of reality. Dreams in pieces, shattered light disappearing near. Shattered dreams haunt her like a lingering melody. Some people called this girl delusional because she was not quite right here in the moment and put together. This girl was clueless as to where she was heading in life and only hoped that there was light at the end of the tunnel. Searching for light, but tangled in shadows that yelp. Either caught up in her past or future there was no happy middle where she was content and at peace. Divided between two worlds that tried to pull her in one direction or another feeling pressured to choose a side. She was so undecided that she could not be sure. But she had no idea as to why she had a different path and wasn’t defined as “normal”. Drawn to it like a moth who follows light. This girl was being led blindly without thinking of the consequences like she was playing dangerously with fire when it came to the realm of magic. She believed that magic would bring everyone together and save so then she was caught in the undertow of the absurd. I wish she could peek through the darkness of her head about. The one who never gave her grace I gave her lust for what she hid from the dark. Most people did not support her beliefs and thought she was mental as though she was seeing and hearing things that were not really there. Hidden messages being sent to her from the ‘other side’. At first, fear took over where she had a panic attack. There was a cry for help but, no one listened. So, she might as well be talking to herself but she won’t she don’t know anything. And she thought she could not speak searching for answers. Frozen in place. She remembers her heart racing where she had trouble breathing to the point where she passed out but the doctor was fast asleep. Fragments of her heart laid scattered, but she would overcome. Unfortunately, due to her unique abilities and insights she was hospitalized as being considered to have a manic episode. At first, she thought she was just another crazy girl. Instead there was a strong sense of intuition as though she had psychic abilities. Also known as a bit of a witch who had a dark side. The worst thing happened where she was just a little girl but, she was not. When the courage was done, and the signals were helped her conscience became silent. The only thing different is this girl who ran away in a different world. Lost but not forgotten. She still had loved ones close to her who cared about her well being however, felt that she was unstable and had to see a therapist and psychiatrist for help because they would not understand. At first, she refused and was in denial fighting and throwing tantrums. Under the weight, she was fighting her own reverie. In the end, she was the only one to make herself feel better but she still got her problems. Then came an acceptance where she lost the power she had. This girl used to be the devil in the mirror who had control of everything from reading people’s minds, controlling outcomes, monitoring traffic etc. Cracked reflections whisper secrets of the future sting. It didn’t matter that she was her own worst enemy because she realized her father was also a monster in disguise covering things up with old lies. Things were not as they seemed but what she was told. She had a thing for evil. Her father was once viewed as the person who always came to help her with all her struggles but then he changed. Because her Dad was not like she was for sure. She felt like a prisoner in her own house having no freedom. Like it was a trap. Every now and then she reflected back on the good times of when she had a ‘normal life’ before this awkward transition that was so new and overwhelming and how before she led a lonely life with idiots. The explanation was to be someone. And for the first time in her life nothing was really lost with a struggle. New immoral friends were waiting who had a certain allure. No one except she was aware of them because they kept her alive in the rooms she was. She was the one who followed the call of the dark star. The portal to the dark unknown was once to be opened and put shut in the door so fast. Little did she know she was in love with the world doing not knowing. The truth is her life and it’s just another thing. The more she found her way home the more she found out what she had to leave so she’s not. However, everything seems to be fading in a distant haze as if it was just a dream. I guess it was all in the mind. Even though she was a prisoner in her own mind. The old woman grabbed her hand and put her to bed and a new day had begun. Another day another victim of the vicious circle. She was sober as she slept. Then she opened her eyes and looked inside this world and found the truth. So, this is how the story ends. She was born in the wrong place at the wrong time and the right way out. Now, she’s broken and weary, searching for who she’s from. 

She spent her whole life trying to beat all her regrets.

And how she put herself into the wrong place and went and made her think of herself. So now, she gotta live with her choices and her plans she never had. There was a time she couldn’t be anyone but her self to become. It was a long time coming, and now her time has come. Everything else had turned to dust as though it was a distant memory but, she will not forget has she had been scarred from the traumatic experience. She wears her scars like a dress woven from debts. Marked in some special way. Will she be invited back to this unfamiliar place or explore deeper realms out of curiosity as it did exist in some point in time?