I am a 51 year old woman. I have 3 children, of which my youngest passed away at the young age of 11. That was 18 years ago. I wake up every day still wishing it were a bad dream but every day I still wake up without him. I have been keeping journals, several, as it were, for many years now. Notes and quotes, thoughts and anecdotes. I aspire to write my memoirs before I become a memoir..