I had a dream that I saw my life from a different point of view,

My life seemed so chaotic and it was all because of you.

In my dream I was going through emotions tryin to hold back

Been thrown out like I was nothin for the things I lack

I stepped into my dream and could hear myself speak,

I felt so much stronger, no longer scared or weak.

I stood there and shouted and iI let my voice be known,

I screamed it to the world cause I was tired of feeling alone.

“You Lied to build me up just to break me down how you even do that Vas

My energy is drained too but you can have that cause this is your loss

Im weak inside and falling out in every direction

But that don’t mean I’m unworthy of havin that affection

I don’t have it all

but I have your back when you fall

I put all of me aside when you were down helped you get through

But I guess you’re all better now don’t need me like I needed you

I tried to write a love letter but you broke the pencil before I could pick it up

Degraded me down to feel like nothing sayin I wasn’t enough

Or maybe you said I was too much I couldn’t hear through all the fallin pieces

My heart it shattered you broke me down

Left me feelin defeated

It wasn’t the first time, my fault, I should’ve learned my lesson

I was too wrapped up disguising you as a reason more like a blessin

This road is getting dark tho I don’t ever see it endin

All the lies and fake I love yous, this whole

time you were just pretendin

I really saw it all in you til you tore down the dreams we built

Not hearin me out sayin I’m just tryin to make you feel guilt

Truth is I was expressin me realizing I built them dreams myself

You didn’t even care what I was sayin didn’t care how I felt

Them walls went up thick, it’s too bad you stayed on that other side

Probably better that way because I don’t like your foolish pride

Walked out when I was down, couldn’t help me through

Broke me down the day I really needed you

I came up from the bottom but I keep fallin to the floor

You want to walk out again but this time I lock the door

I appreciate the lessons tho, caught me off guard but I get how you feel

I’m not built for a weak man, someone who ain’t down for me when things gets real

I really did see you as someone else, saw you as a blessin

Left me at my worst said I had you stressin got tired of my downfalls but I never left you guessin

I was real with my struggles and you chose to pretend to love me anyway

Life ain’t always painted perfect life for me changes everyday

You could say my words mean hurt but they really do mean power

I’m not the one on the other end lookin like a coward

This poetry I didn’t write it down and spit it out to break you like you did me

But I hope it gets through and helps you realize the shit you didn’t see

I admit I’m a mess but I shine right through it all

I never expected you to catch me just to be there when I fall

I’ll do me and you do you

Hope you ain’t ever down and she don’t come through

That’s a pain that can’t be explain but thats for you to learn

Theres no goin back after this bridge you burned

I accepted pain and went through the hurt by myself

Disregarded how I felt even all this mess with my health

I’m not afraid to stand alone and I know I have others

You turned on the light and showed your true colors

Even tho it hurts I still stand up tall

Seeing the truth of it all

The massive lies and the pretend goodbyes

Been through this mess before but this is the last time I do

Tried to tear me down cause it wasn’t workin out for you

Said I wasn’t the one but it’s you who’s not for me

Mistaken me for your last pretendin I was she

I took a lot of disrespect but you can take back every last bit

I’m not doin no more back and forth this time I quit

I tried to write you a love letter

But Realizing now that I can do better

Writing all these feelings on paper I’m almost out of ink

Puttin the pen down got it off my chest and I don’t care what you think”

I had a dream I was strong enough to shout that all out to you,

I had a dream that I could be me, and there was nothing that you could do.

Stacie Lopez

@Sazkuw10

Arizona

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