My name is Joseph Paul Ruiz I was born April 8,1985 in PHX Arizona I was raised by my mother and 3 siblings 2 brothers and 1 sister, my mom well she had asthma, really bad asthma the kind that sends you straight to the hospital almost every time an attack happened.with her I learned to cook and clean house .my dad was about 3 houses away I , I can't say that I learned anything from him but nun the less I still love him greatly. I dropped out of school in the 7th grade and went on living leaving my siblings to go on with their own lives and me with my mom and step dad and I also learned a great deal of nothing but drinking beer and watching war movies. At around 18 years old I started going to jail and of course I started selling drugs and alcohol since 2022 and still till this day Im still in contributions ,but not really and jail happened about 18 times out of my entire life and now I a father of 1 deceased daughter as 2009 .she was 3 years old at the time ,I and her mother were both "using and was on drugs when she had her but we got a chance to bring her home but needed to do drug treatment classes only the mother not my self but time went on and no class time until the day I felt like I was never going to see my daughter ever again. The cps officer came to the door and asked for her and I brought Juliana to the cps officer and the feeling of being a failure of a father came over me like nothing could of been done and all hope was lost , being home with her everyday when she'd wake up until she'd go to sleep,she was my baby girl for crying out loud what was was I saposto do I had no path being in a abusive relationship being gas lighted and always ending up incarcerated then while in side I got 3 parenting and 3 drug and alcohol certificates wanting to change for the better to get my daughter back from CPS custody then we got a call telling us that our daughter has passed away then having to kiss her cold forehead to having her funeral my brothers wife got charged with manslaughter and 10 years was given after sentencing well any ol way was this saposto be brief all in all I had 3 daughters and 2 boys I finally left after 6 and a half years of a my way or no way relationship and now 2 boys with my wife separated going on 8 years I thought I had everything I needed to be a great dad from being with him Eli I mean everyday until 4 years old my sobriety life from drugs was unstoppable and then to make it short we separated and she came over to the house one day to take him to a birthday party to never bringing him back and my life was even more as the same as when I placed my daughter in to CPS hands then my whole life crashed once again and I was in and out of jail again and again over and over and now till this day Im homless and on the streets I'm actually laying outside needing to pee ha ha can you believe that I'll shake it off but I invented something great for saving money in hand but never finished my payment part of the application and now Im writing a manuscript it was called by a publishing company of 7000 words and have copies made just feal like to much of a loser to get it taken care of AS well as doing a multiple story line on Facebook Instagram tic-toc and YouTube and also scoops platforms again my name is Joseph Paul Ruiz DOB 04/08/1985 USA